So I quit my job again...

I am a pony of many talents, thank Celestia!
This fact has allowed me to somehow always put food on my table... If I was willing to work for it. 
I have good talents and bad,  of course just like any alcoholic.
This particular pony is a great hoof-net designer, can layout a mean book, balance the books of a corporation, make neat animations and build a computer among other things.  I can also be manipulative, cruel, and conniving to get what I need.
I took a job to help a friend in November. It's a pretty intense job and the little bit of money it got me was alright. It also took all of my time. My meetings have fallen off, my clients in my main business have suffered and I'm poorer than when I started.
Oh well. It took a moment to figure out that I needed to move on and get back to my business that I own...

I'm really tired and ready to sleep, but I'm glad I've arrived at a decision and I get to move on. It's really hard to move on for this alcoholic pony, but with Celestia's grace,  I should be alright.

More to come...

Still Sober...

I haven't had the wherewithal to write in the past few weeks. I'm traveled to Saddle Arabia and am working pretty hard.

I am very well taken care of here with a maid in the house and fancy dinners and all. This is kinda dangerous for me. I start thinking that I have everything in hand. "I got this," I say to myself. This is a deadly thought.

I know at this point I need to remember how life was like before I found the program.

The friend I'm staying with isn't in the program lie I am but she has been a great support. So she asked me to tell my story last night. It was awesome. It was like a mini meeting.

With that, I'm doing well.

How becoming a Brony has changed my life

I wrote what's below in response see to a question on Equestria Daily.  Until I read it over a few time I didn't realize how much this has meant to me. The only events in my life that compare are meeting my husband, having puppies with my jack russell Zosia and getting sober.

August 18th was the day i watched my first episode of MLP. My life today is completely different. For 34 years I have felt out of step. Into science, technology, fantasy and other esoteric things that the people around me were not interested it. As a kid in school I was bullied and further isolated. I was always afraid to join up with any kind of team activity or group.
I'm not a shy person by any means, most people would say I'm an extrovert and charming. That's only true when I have something in front of me like my camera or a work project. Inside I feel very different and I have to hide those "geeky" things about me.
My Little Pony got me over that.
I went through the oft described stages of becoming a brony; from outright rejection to inward acceptance to outward pride. There was a day I just said "Fuck it, I'm 34 years old and I'm allowed to like what I like. Why am I letting other people define me?"
I joined the NYC Bronies group and went to a meetup. I was so nervous that the nigh before i stared at the ceiling all night. When I arrived at the comic book reading meetup I very quickly found a group that understood so many facets of myself that I hadn't dared to show anyone else.
I found my people.
Also, before MLP I considered my self an artistic hack. I design websites, printed materials, books and stuff like that. I also am a professional photographer. I always felt like I was just hacking someone else's idea. When people would call me artistic I never felt that I earned it.
I have never been inspired before in my life. I now write, I took up sculpting I started drawing. I am interested in music again. I feel like a dynamo spun up inside me. I dont feel like a hack anymore.
I found that I'm talented.
Sorry to go on so long but I'm near tears writing this. Its meant so much to me and my life is so different today.
Thank you to everybody in this community. The show is amazing and all, but without the fandom and it's amazing creative output i would still be stuck in a metaphoric black and white Kansas.
tl;dr - I have nerdy, cool friends and I am creating art.

And that's how Equestria was made... 

Its been a while!

Eeyup, Still Sober!

Here's some pics I very quickly composited together for a meetup I'm planning to the Cloisters Museum in uptown Manehattan.

Check it out at http://www.meetup.com/Bronies-NYC/events/146351372/

First things first

I'm going into a crazy two weeks.  I don't quite know how I will make it to as many meetings that I need to. 

Sometimes it feels like being an alcoholic pony is too much work.

Stressed!

I'm really good at forgetting about how I have always taken care of through ever trying time in my life.  I have a upcoming event that is very important to me.  I have so much to organize and put together.  I want it to be perfect (of course).  I want everypony to love it.

This is not realistic.

If I show up and do my best I'm not responsible for the results. Almost always it turns out better than I imagined. 

Thank Celestia I have everypony in my life that I do. Thank Celestia I have this place to write down my thoughts and see it in black and white.

Thank Celestia I have some gratitude for the opportunities I have in my life. I'm still nervous, but I'll get through it.

Getting Better

My hooves are starting to get a little better with this drawing thing. I hope you like my next self portrait.

I think I have to do some of my friends soon.

P.S. I wouldn't be able to do this if I wasn't sober.
I am sooooo grateful!